The Lethal Vernal Equinox (Baul Republiq Tribute- one shot) Written By: EvenHeartlessDevilCry Website: www.ehdc.yolasite.com Sorry for the typographical and grammatical errors. -xxx-xxx-xxx-xxx-xxx- I was living a life of pure loneliness. I was afraid to love again, to hope again and to be inspired again because after that I know I will be distorted and broken into pieces. I know no one will love me again because I am ugly. That's all... It was the first day of March and the graduation is near. "Good morning Giselle!" Santos yelled as he approached my friend. Giselle was my best friend because we’re both ugly- they say birds with the same feather flock together and that’s the explanation. "Good morning!" Giselle answered. I was sitting beside Giselle but Santos didn't even try to greet me as if I am invisible, maybe it’s because he will copy again the preparation of Giselle... "What book are you reading?" Santos inquired to Giselle. Giselle was always busy reading books every morning before the flag ceremony, it was her hobby. "I'm reading Mafia Prince's Labyrinth Of Love written by EvenHeartlessDevilCry." my friend answered. "Oh' the title sounds interesting huh' what is it about?" "It’s about a heartless boy (not literally) who taught his self not to be in love because he's too afraid to be hurt again but still he fell in love to an angel like girl- he didn't expect to love that girl because she's not his type but he can't control his feelings that he always felt beside her." Giselle explained. My friend Giselle really loves reading, she chooses books to read. She read book that is worth reading for that she can learn emotionally, spiritually and intellectually. "I want also to read that story after I finish doing my assignments. Can we borrow your notebook in English? Melvin and I didn't have preparation." Santos mumbled. That's what I am expecting, he will try to be friend with Giselle just to copy her preparation-- the role of the ugly in our school was just to lend our notebooks to those lazy students who didn't prepare their assignments. "Here! Just give it back to me after you finish copying." Giselle said while giving her notebook to Santos. Giselle was too kind that's why I really adore her as my friend. "Hey,!Pamela! It seems that you are so bother with something, what is it?" Giselle asked me as she stopped reading the book. "It's because after all these years you always keep on lending your notebook to Santos, doesn't he know how to prepare his assignments?" I muttered. "He's our classmate so I better let them borrow my notebook, or else he and Melvin will get mad of me- of us." she answered. "May I ask you Pam, do you go out with a date since the day you broke up with Jeff?" Giselle asked. Maybe she just wants to change the topic... "No... I don't have time to have a boyfriend again-- I'm too tired of hoping that my relationship with any guy will work. I'm ugly and nobody loves me, except you and my parents." I replied. "Oh' you're like Curfiel one of the characters in Mafia Prince's Labyrinth Of Love both of you were afraid to love again, you know true love never sees beautiful faces and wealth-- true love has a reason and that reason is still unknown. We will not be in love using our eyes, it's about using our heart." she dictated. I was nearly to believe her but I reminisce again all the tears I cry for him, all the memories we have still haunt me every single day. I don't want to be in love again. It'll just ruin my life. *krriiing... krrriiiing* The bell rang so I and Giselle went to our proper line during flag ceremony. We sang the national anthem, took pledge and other stuff. After flag ceremony. We went to our classroom. Sir Boneo checked and put facsimile on our assignment. After Sir checked our assignment he discussed our lesson for that day, I and Giselle were always keep our mouth zippered because if we don't our classmates will look and mock at us. Were not like Antoinette, Shane, Nino and Janine they were always noisy and topsy-turvy... I should say academic noise coz they keep on reciting and they were always active in different activities given. After the class we went home. Giselle and I always have a life of pure déjà vu; our life is a cycle it keeps on repeating and repeating. The time ran so fast. It was already March 20; it was a day before our graduation. I was alone in the class room. I was the leader. My group mates made me the leader because I can do by myself the beautification of our classroom, so some of them didn't help in cleaning. "Reymart why are you here, where are your friends Cyruz and Anthony?" I asked him. "They already went home, I’m just here to make a letter before going home." he answered. "A letter to your friend." I muffled. "No, its letter to my love--" he replied. "Why can't you just tell that in front of that girl..." I said. "I'm too coward, I don't know if she loves Me." he mumbled. "Do you think that girl will also love me?" he asked. "Yah' because your handsome." I replied. "I didn't believe in that handsome and beautiful issue-- because if I will be like that it isn't love." he answered as he continued writing. I couldn't find words to answer to what he said. I just continued erasing all what was written on the chalkboard he was at the back seat. After, I've cleared the chalkboard, I bid to say goodbye-- and left him all alone in the classroom because it was already 12 o'clock. During the afternoon, I received a letter... ~Can we meet this afternoon at the back of the school garden? I realize that I love you! Please go there I will wait for you...~ Maybe it was Jeff again our secret place was at back of the school garden- my happy moments start here. I'm just halting my heart-- coz in real I really really do love him. I'm saying that I will not be in love coz I can't seem to move on. After our last practice (graduation) I told Giselle that I have something to do, so I abruptly went to our secret place. There I saw Jeff then I hugged him. I'm so happy that he was by my side again-- "What are you doing, that was all a bet- our relationship... so don't dare to hug me. I don't love you! And I think nobody will love you." he said as he noticed me. He removed my arms around him. I thought he will love me again. Why life is so unfair? I gave love but what I received was a stab of sadness. Maybe I was just so ambitious that a campus heart throb like him will be in love with me. I just sat on the bench near the garden. I really felt tears that want fall. I' m watching the sky, the night and the day are the same length. I can say that it was Vernal Equinox; it happens on March 20 or 21. I was just so unfortunate that this Vernal Equinox became Lethal- it is already capable of killing my whole heart, maybe after this I should not pretend to be heartless. I will be already heartless. "Pam!" someone shouted my name. Then I turned back and I saw Reymart running going to my direction. "Thanks that you were here did you received the letter?" Reymart asked me. "Yah' I received it." I said blankly with no emotion. After I've said that he embraced me-- I don't know why he was doing it. "I love you Pam. I really love you... don't cry because of Jeff, throw away all of your happy moments with him because together we will create new and happy memories..." he said emotionally. "Did you know what you are saying?" I asked him. "I know what I am saying. I didn't know why I love you but every time I see you I'm inspired, I'm happy- incandescently happy--- If you want to cry, cry on my shoulder." "You must be joking." I said. "No, I'm not. I've found courage to say it to you because I don't have spare time, we will be graduated and our path will be departed. I want that before it happens I already say what I really felt for you. I wrote the letter not Jeff." Reymart added and he gets the letter I was holding. I was wrong, thinking that Jeff wrote the letter. "You mean the letter you wrote inside the classroom was for me?" I inquired. He nodded and smiled at me. I didn't feel that he loves me because my heart was nearly to close for any relationship and I couldn't unchain the memories I had made with Jeff. "There's nothing in this world I can't sacrifice just for your happiness. I'm willing to do everything to make you completely happy." he said with a persuading voice. When I heard that, it was just like I want cry because of happiness thinking that someone is in love with me, that someone is willing to give everything for me. "You love me even I am ugly?" I asked. "I love you. Maybe I'm not after the beauty-- I'm after what my heart felt." he answered. After the darkness devours everything the love within me reflects the rainbow colors of sunlight. Maybe now is the right time to open my heart to new possibilities, to mend my broken heart and to make myself happy with him. This March 20-- happened the Lethal Vernal Equinox-- Lethal in such a way that I'm putting again my heart at risk... We must know that there is someone out there who’s willing to give unparallel love… Now I believe that love is blind because it's not about what our eyes can see but about what our heart can feel... [END] EvenHeartlessDevilCry :)18